The white dress, my confession

I saw her in the white dress... she was a goddess, i can't fathom the feelings that i felt when i looked. I've seen her off and on many times before. It felt like a movie, when the guy asks a girl out to prom and he waits at the end of the stairs, to see something transformed, and turn his heart from lust, to love. Passion arises and stomach turns, butterflies, the jitters of hesitation on trying to stumble on words to just say "You look beautiful..." Knowing that just those three words weren't even enough to define what an angel looks like. Ever since that day i see her, i feel like a high school crush thats lost in the crowed of people. Her smile reminds me of a happier time in my life, almost back to infant times when i felt everything was okay. That leap of faith you take knowing that even though your scared, you feel like nothing can hurt you once you free fall. I feel like every time i see her.. i'm still falling in a surreal reality. She is sweet and genuine and doesn't let life get her down, her pride rises on top with her head high and wings out. She truly is.. isis of sound.. because i can't speak. Words are taking from me. I can't be myself. How do i show her how genuine i really am? does she judge me by color? body type? hight? or personality? I just want one night with her, one real conversation to open up and show her the real me. I can't i won't i'm shy... i'm stuck... i'm falling...but i can't wait to see her again.. But nice guys always finish last, and people will always look at me as, the crazy Graffiki. I'm much more then that, i' m more then a face, a picture, an image, a smile.. I'm alone, and no matter how many smiles, jokes laughs i try to encourage or participate in. No one will know how much i really want to be with someone who can treat me right and that i can admit that i'll cook for, buy cards, or flowers, or even have movies nights because i'm not that manly and do enjoy a chick flick or that my favorite movies consist of serendipity, kate & leopold , return to me. And not Action movies... *sigh*... only a fool would have the courage to talk to her knowing he'd be shot down.. but i wish i could just spend one day in the life of a fool...